It's 4:58 am April 25th, 2014. I woke up not to long ago with a lot on my mind, I couldn't sleep so I grabbed my laptop and Googled everything wedding photography. It's nothing out of the ordinary for me, I search things about wedding photography everyday. The reason for my temporary insomnia is self doubt, fear, and failure.
What if you can't make it? What if you really just suck at this? What if you never be half the man your Father is? Or see any of the success he's seen. All of these thoughts came racing through my head at 3:07 am. So I began to listen to them and began to feel worthless in a sense.
After watching my fourth episode of Friends I began to think some more. These thoughts we're more positive. If you couldn't make it you wouldn't have done the things you've done thus far, If you sucked at taking pictures then why do many people see so much potential in you? You're not meant to be your Father...you're you! , And more importantly your success is not his and his is not yours.
So with that being said I've decided that it's time to stop worrying so much about the future and live one day at time. There's nothing I can do about the future except hope I'm there to see it and do everything I can in the here and now to make sure I have a great one. As long as I have my Faith, my Family, and Photography everything else will fall into place. So here's to insomnia, self doubts, and brighter futures!